"HI!"  This blog is not about a diary although there will be day's it may seem like one!  I hope to capture some of the highs and lows of living life with BIPOLAR!

It can be a lot of fun when you are on the HIGH side (mania) and not so much fun when you are on the LOW side (depression).  Most people tend to gravitate towards one end of the scale but experience the somewhere in-between as well.

Here you will hear a LOT about the medications, doctors and therapy that I have tried, hated, vomited and those that have actually seemed to help!   Still hate them, but I have accepted they are a neccessary evil.

My personal history has always been on the side of mania ~ and WOW can that be a lot of fun!  Until the credit card bills come in... the pink slip at work... the people who walk out of your life (and some that you pushed) and then the reality hits home.  Reality sucks.  :-)

I will even talk about the subjects that are TOP SECRET in my life.  My immediate family and ONE of my closest friends knows that I have been put on disability.  I find it humiliating but again, have accepted it as a neccessity for now.  Trust is not something I do very easily because I have been hurt by those I trusted most.  Unfortunately, I believe some of that is the illness ~ you trust the wrong people because you have put yourself in the wrong situation.  Yeeaaah... there's been LOTS of that.

There is sooooo much that I want to write about and hope you will all enjoy it and even join in when you can!  It's not all bad!  Well I am off to take my nightly concoction of antipsychotics (blech) and get into bed before midnight!  My doctor has been yelling at me for years about the 'importance of regular sleep'.  Go to bed at the same time and get up at the same time EVERY DAY.   Hmm... yeah, we'll just say that I do.

Goodnight my peeps and see you tomorrow!